The Perfect Gift!

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A miracle and blessing – my  Son Archie Peter George Power – born April 1 2008

Many of us hold a painful story.

Sadly many of us have faced the terrible grief from losing a loved one, or have dealt with incredibly hard life-challenges such as mental illness, social-isolation, addiction, in summary anything that many of us face at some point in life!

Yes a time in life that I thought would be so perfect – a new baby, a new life, sadly the new everything became a world of intense worry, sadness, fear, anxiety and trauma as a terrified young woman had to accept and face that her babies new start to life was out of her control, and in the hands of a surgeon, an intensive care unit, and included in a world filled with no concrete answers for what was ahead!

Sadly for me holding on to past beliefs that I was never good enough, and believing perfectionism was the only way to prove I was!  All the old mental clutter, along with the new scary challenges for my first-born Son, all manifested very quickly, leaving with it a residue of significant trauma, and intense worry!

At the time it was hard to see and feel OK due to all the mental and emotional fog!  In reflection after struggling for many years.  I know see and feel the blessing in the pain.  The blessing in the pain was the fact my Son survived.  I was also blessed that I could even conceive, and actually lucky that my body could bring a new child into the world.

My family was also blessed by the amazing health professionals that cared for my Son around the clock, given him the strength and restoration of health so he could survive the future of his own health journey, and develop like many other children – vibrant, happy and healthy.

What I know today is that my Sons survival and life was a miracle blessing!

Now as a 43 year-old Mum, nearly 10 years on from this life changing moment.  Sadly the blame and punishment I inflicted upon myself led to trauma and anorexia, and a breakdown of a fragile young women’s nervous system!

Despite the pain, punishment and numbing feelings to cope.  Despite what challenges we ever need to face and overcome.  We were all babies and little children once.  We all came here with our hearts full of love and compassion, not pain, conflict, judgement and punishment!

So remember – the best gift and blessing we can give our family, our children, ourselves is to love and accept who we are, strengthen our weaknesses, and be courageous in every moment you can! 

The more we love and accept what is, the more we can grow  from where we are, and therefore find more love and blessings for our own life, and others.   

Yours in blessings and love!

 

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One thought on “The Perfect Gift!

  1. You are very brave to speak your truth and open up about your feelings and your life, this takes a very strong person to speak this truth – your post is proof that you have come a long way on your new positive path.

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